1.52 am... London time
... tak boleh tidur. that's me. when my brain has been working, and the momentum is still going on, i just cant get myself to sleep. tolongla. nak tidur. esok, i hv to be at the ward at 8am! entahla.. biler la routine nih akan habis?
i cuba carik punca momentum of my brain.ape yg i fikirkan sebenarnyer?
YES! dah tahu...
do you guys know (Malaysian readers, if there's any..), how lucky you are??! all of you memang bertuah!
kadang2 i rase i'm neither here nor there...not belong to Malaysia, not even belong to UK... no sense of being owned and owning. was born in Malaysia. live in UK, work in UK, for years and years and years. my time di Malaysia terlampau singkat for me to enjoy how it feels like being at home. my responsibility is all here, in the UK...
kadang2 teringin jadi macam anda semua.
complain about the hot weather.
complain about political controversies nowadays.
complain about macam2.
complain about traffic jam...
kadang2 teringin ikut anda semua pergi lunch dekat kedai yg jual mee goreng yg best (mamak?!), makan macam2 yg best2...
kadang2 teringin join anda semua gossiping abt things you put in ur blogs...
nak elaborate ape yg i nak pon i tak tahu.. i dont have much experience back home for me to actually share with you guys.
i rasekan kekurangan yg i ade..
kekurangan jd half Malaysian and half not! literally and metaphorically.
entahla.. 'kadok' mungkin akan cakap..'you should be grateful azzurri...'
i know he would say that. betul tak? ;)
tapi kan. mungkin i dah penat?
penat jadi independent. too independent!
1 year ago